Hey Beautiful Soul!
I am so happy and grateful you want to get to know me more, and I hope I get the chance to hear more about you too!
First thing you should know about me is this. LOVE is my purpose. My main mission and main goal in all of this, is to be a guiding force of LOVE in people's lives. I have a strong desire to leave people, ALL people, better off then how I found them.
I am a super Spiritual girl (although, I curse a lot). I believe that things happen for a reason, and that life is about learning the lessons of love and how to become whole. I can be pretty Sarie-Fairy, but really we need to learn to look at life through a lense of what serves us and what doesn't, and own our choices. We can make what we want out of this life, by choosing how to perceive it.
For most of my life, I said the affirmation "I love myself", when in truth I hated myself. We are talking deep seated, disgust, loathing and hatred. Consistently beating myself up that I wasn't good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, talented enough or lovable enough. I was chronically ill and dealing with a multitude of disheartening physical, psychological and spiritual dilemmas. Fighting myself at every turn, and often times begging for God to remove me from this earth. I am not sharing this to bring you down, but to give you hope. Keep reading...
Some amazing things happened to me on my journey that ultimately helped to awaken to my purpose and direction.
- My parents instilled in me some amazing nuggets of wisdom that I hold dear to my heart and that I live by.
- Fate introduced me to someone at a young age, from an entirely different part of the country who would act as my rock, my stabilizer, and my best friend to be there during the darkest hours of my life, and who eventually became my spouse.
- Persistence and determination took over in the face of fear. After so many things in my life went absolutely arye, I desired to help others. This comes from the one major rule I live my life by... "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" ~ The Golden Rule. I had a dream to be able to heal others with my hands. Even though I was terrified, and I was physically uncomfortable (might I even say sick) about the decision to pursue an education in Massage Therapy, persistence and determination stepped in. Continuing to make the decision to go for this dream even after multiple failures. First being denied by my health and second by my finances. BUT...the third time was the charm for me!
The Most Pivotal Moment In My Life & Career
This was probably one of the most pivotal moments in my life where real change began to occur. I was in the midst of one of the most challenging times in my life at the time. My husband and I were attempting to have children, but after 2 years of no answers and no fruit growing on this particular tree, I needed to have purpose to go on. Massage Therapy and my desire to help others gave me said purpose.
The whole experience of my training and education was full of revelations about myself. The first one being I AM INCREDIBLY SMART! After years of mediocre and sometimes below average achievement as a student, the negative message of "I am stupid, and incapable of learning" was put to bed. Next was, I had more power over my health, and that I CAN heal myself...with education and a BIG shift in perception I have been able to clear up 99% of the health related issues that plagued me for years..not to mention being able to DITCH the dozens of prescriptions I was taking in my 20s! Third, I made more powerful connections, that would eventually lead to more growth.
Big Lessons & Spiritual Shifts
The next set of shifts I went through awoke me even further to my purpose and spirituality and allowed me the opportunity to deepen my relationship with the most important person in my life. Myself.
After years of working as an entrepreneur in the holistic industry as a Licensed Massage Therapist the other foot dropped.
The most challenging time in my life turned into one of the biggest heartbreaks. After 6 years of trying my husband and I discovered we are unable to conceive children. This knowledge ripped my heart out and f*ucking jumped up and down in it. Even though I felt purposeful helping others, I felt my main mission in life was to be a Mom. This seriously f*cked with my head. With a history of panic and anxiety disorders this news hit me hard. Now, I was desperately clinging to my purpose to help others, and took some MAJOR risks to gain more education and begin developing myself. God works in mysterious ways people.
Flashing forward.. traveling all over learning new things about the Universe, Energy, Spirituality, Intuition & Love... I have found myself, and healed myself deeper than I ever thought possible. I AM NOW, one of the HAPPIEST, upbeat, sassy, joyful, empathetic, Spiritual, LOVE is my purpose kinda of girl you could even met!
The BIG lesson I learned through all of this is that...You can choose how to experience your life. You can be sad, sick and miserable, begging for death...OR you can choose to see the beauty of the world through a lense of love, seeing failures as growth opportunities and look for lessons to learn. Happiness is action.
My aim and mission in life is to leave people better than when I found them. I took all of my hardships, lessons, bumps, bruises and heartbreaks fusing them with the knowledge I have gained, turning them into my f*ucking superpower. I aspire to help others achieve the level of freedom and love that they desire and deserve, AND HAVE FUN DOING IT. Nothing.. I mean nothing is holding you back from greatness, except your perception! Don't just be the "hero" of your story...be the freaking SUPERHERO, in an awesome cape and fancy glitter tights!
If all of this resonates with you, if you feel inspired and hopeful...Then let's get to know each other and see how I might be able to help you achieve greatness!